~DaNcInQuEeN~ Posted March 1, 2005 Report Share Posted March 1, 2005 I am 13, but my aspirations to be a ballerina have never wavered. Like something Victoria Leigh said somewhere "Ballet is like a calling". That is what it is for me. Ever since I could walk, I could dance, ever since I could talk I could ask for ballet lessons. I started "ballet" when I was five, and moved to a very good, serious studio when I was ten. It seemed that I had little talent or none! In fact, I was put in a class with seven year olds. For the next two years I worked VERY hard and now I am in a level with students my age and I have been en pointe for 1.5 years. I take class daily and each day my passion grows stronger. Now I am auditioning for summer programs and keep working every class. For two years I was rejected from two summer programs that I REALLY wanted. I decided to look at my dreams and my goals. I probably will never be a principal with ABT or NYCB. I dont have the "ballerina" body. I don’t have great feet or the right height. I won’t let that get in the way. My motivation will lead me forward. After rejections from anywhere, I keep asking myself “Why don’t they want me”, “What can I do?”, “Why can’t I be the person these places want?” Then I got to thinking “What is the point in doubting myself”. Dwelling in self pity. I may NEVER have the feet, the legs. It’s not the end of the world! I am not struggling with ED’s or injuries. I have supportive parents and caring friends. I have teachers with so much to offer. It’s time for all of us who get so caught up in the ballet world to step back, count our blessings and move on. I can dance and be happy in a tiny company, in the middle of nowhere. I never have to be on the cover of Pointe magazine. Does that mean I am going to give up? Stop dreaming? NO! I’m just making my goals a bit more realistic. I will be happy as long as I’m dancing. Isn’t that what I was set out to do in the first place? And there is always the possibility that I will never become a dancer. All these years of training is not a waist of time. What is better than spending half of my life doing what I love? For now I’m just going to stop worrying about the future. I’ll just keep dreaming, keep working hard, keep dancing and see where it takes me. This life is what I want What Victoria Leigh said: While you might never make the same kind of money you would in the corporate world, the difference is that you would be doing what you really want to do with your life, and loving it. How many corporate people really have a love and a passion for what they do? Perhaps some, but my guess would be not the majority. It's a job. Ballet is a life. But, it's not an easy one, by any stretch of the imagination. Ballet is a commitment, a focus, a lifestyle, and a passion. It's like a calling. If it is something you HAVE to do, not just something you choose to do, then you will find a way to do it. If it is not something you have to do, but just like and want to do, fine, enjoy it, keep dancing, but put your priority on what you want to do for a living. I think she puts it in a really beautiful way. Thanks BA for listening to my rambling! I guess the realization just hit me! Quote Link to comment
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