Striving for Grace Posted September 21, 2006 Report Share Posted September 21, 2006 In one of my ballet classes (variations), the first week was just written assignments and going to see ballet and modern ballet performances that we had to analyze. Our first time actually dancing in that class was this morning. I missed my bus and was running late (I'm NEVER late, let alone for ballet! ) so I decided to take another bus and walk/run the rest of the way. The sidewalks were iced over and of course I decided to fall and twist my stupid ankle. Luckily I had put my hair in a bun and had my leo and tights on beneath my street clothes, so changing was quick. But I was in such a hurry that I popped my leo strap. I took deep breaths and quickly sewed it back on. I got to class just as the teacher was finishing attendance. She looked sternly at me and said that obviously I didn't have as much passion for dancing as I did for watching others dance (I was early for all 3 performances last week). I apologized for being late and quickly went over to the barre. For some odd reason, I felt completely flustered after that. My barrework was ok but by far the worst it's been in a long time, and I was shaking so much (internally) and my ankle was throbbing, and I couldn't hold my balances for more than 10 seconds. I got yelled at for coming down early about 5 times. Center was ok but I kind of stayed at the back of the studio to avoid my teacher's gaze. During across the floor we were doing rather simple combinations, stuff I can totally do well, but I botched over and over, partly due to pain and partly due to nerves. This teacher has never taught me before and does not kow how much I love (loved?) ballet, how hard I usually work, or how little experience I have. Since that was my first class, I'm afraid she'll think I'm always like ... well, like that. Any chance of redeeming myself if I go to next class mentally prepared and work as hard as I can? Or will she forever see me as a lazy, unskilled, untalented student? Grace Quote Link to comment
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