Striving for Grace Posted September 25, 2006 Report Share Posted September 25, 2006 Well, I'm out of ballet for at least 3 weeks with an injury. My second hugely dissappointing injury this year. Something wasn't "right" about my ankle on the weekend, so this morning I went back to the docs and got re-x-rayed and apparently my ankle joint was slightly out of alignment (ie. there was a minor dislocation of 3mm that they initially missed), and after popping it back into place (the grossest feeling and sound! ) they told me that I had some damage to the deltoid lig (I thought it was a lateral sprain)because of the dislocation... they assume that when I rolled it, I overcorrected to try and avoid falling, and the ankle slid past it's normal range of motion on the inside as well. ANYWAYS! During class time I'm supposed to come to class as usual and watch and take notes. I went to my variations class this morning and the barre and centerwork was typical, but it is a variations class and the combinations that we're learning are often long, complicated, and involve many changes of speed and direction and character subtleties (I never did character ballet). Many of you will know by know that I've only been dancing for a year now, as well. So stuff that others have been doing for years I often have never even seen before. I feel like I can't take it all in from the sidelines. I need to be out there dancing, doing in order to memorize the combinations. At the end of class I looked down at my notebook to see that there were way more question marks and blanks than I'm comfortable with... I felt like crying and my face probably showed it, because my teacher asked me several times if my ankle was hurting a lot, which it was, but that's not why I was disheartened. I'm so ashamed and I feel like I just don't "get" what we're learning in class because I physically can't do it right now. In late Oct. we have performances and I don't think I'll be able to have my sequences memorized... I just feel so down. Already I've found myself snapping at and shutting out my sis and my best friends. The fact that my friends have created a new monicker for me isn't helping: "Gimpy" + "ballerina" ="gimparina". That's how they greet me now... and before class and after, everyone's practicing and chatting and I feel like I'm on another planet... and an invisible one at that... I'm not even expected to change for class because it would take me forever to do so with this stupid bulky splint, and also because the studio's freezing and I'm not going to get warm if I'm just sitting on my butt all class. To add insult, my other ankle is all achy now because all my weight is always on it, and my wrists hurt from the crutches (permission to throw me a little sympathy granted). Any ideas for keeping muscle memory intact when unable to dance? I seriously feel like just saying "whatever" and dropping my dance classes at this point. Grace Quote Link to comment
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