Marjolein Posted August 6, 2008 Report Share Posted August 6, 2008 I'm very happy to be taking good classes again, but I'm so frustrated. I have lost everything I worked hard at for years. Now I never had any strength, i was the typical all flexibility no strength dancer, but I've lost most of my flexibility as well. Still left and right splits, but nowhere near middle splits, no extension, hardly any cambré. I constantly feel as if my body is doing nothing. I mess up easy combinations (tombé pas de bourrée, glissade, assemblé). I'm still feeling the exhaustion of severe depression in my body and I hate it. Of course the teacher said it will all come back, and another student I took class with years ago said I did quite good for such a long time off. But I'm so scared I will never get back to where I was or get better than that. And to add to the frustration, these classes are in Brussels, which makes it nearly impossible to take them during the year. But taking them as made me realise how much I love dancing. I'd dance every day all day long if I could. And if I weren't so tired all the time. But the teacher just said, if you love dancing all that much, why don't you. Which is easy said if you're a retired principal, but not if you're a college student trying to survive working weekends. To tempt me even more, he told me he will be starting his own professional school, and when I said that wouldn't be for me, he just said, why not. If I could choose, I'd quit college (I already have a degree, I'm studying for my second degree), do some more hours at my job, and spend all the rest of my time in dance classes (and voice lessons and acting classes). But that's not the sensible decision. But it's what I've been dreaming of for years. It's realistic for now, but I don't know if it will take me somewhere in the future. I'm not trying to be a ballet dancer, at 23 I'm much too old for that, musical theatre is my biggest love. But of course one never knows if one succeeds at such a career. On the other hand, I'm studying secondary education in Dutch and history at the moment something I'm good at, it will get me a job, I love it, though not nearly as much as dancing Sorry about this, I'm just a bit at a loss at the moment. Quote Link to comment
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