silkmaiden Posted August 21, 2013 Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 Okay this is NOT meant to be a brag post, in any way, shape or form. I just needed to post somewhere where people would understand how I feel! I don't dare take up anymore of my teachers' time, they already think I'm a little cuckoo probably. I'm just having SO MUCH FUN. It's like, each class is just better than the last (I don't mean I dance perfectly all the time or never have a bad class, not true). The more I dance, the more in love I fall with it, and the more I want to dance. I would stay there ALL NIGHT LONG if I could. Not that I could afford that, even if there were enough classes offered. I had a class last night at a different from my usual school. And it's usually a very intimidating class. I take almost all my classes with the teens, and I'm currently working at RAD intermediate, and this class is ALL Advanced 1-2 students, so usually the class ends up being Adv 1 level. Which most of the time freaks me out. But I don't know if it was because of the teacher or just how friendly everyone was being (I notice that matters so much to me - if I feel like the class if catty or negative or unfriendly, it really wrecks my nerves), but it was an amazing class. My extensions were right up there in adagio, I actually landed all my double pirouettes (which, like, NEVER happens), and grand allegro felt AWESOME. I actually looked in the mirror during grand allegro and my grand jetes actually looked like a split! I was shocked, since usually I look better in my head than in reality.... I have to apologize a bit here if I sound a bit gloating, I don't mean to be, I'm just still giddy. I think, for me, it's so much mental. And taking lots of classes has really shored up my confidence. It's like, if I take class almost daily, one bad exercise or one bad class isn't a big deal. But if I only take class once or twice a week, each mess up feels THAT much more a big deal, if that makes sense. In any case, I hope I can continue with this momentum in the fall. I worry that not being able to get ballet everyday will interrupt my momentum. I've doubled up where I can and I'm doing jazz, contemporary, tap and hip hop on other days, but I worry about losing my 'edge' in ballet. Yep, ballet is my grand passion. When I'm not in the studio, I'm counting down till my next class. I just wish I were made of money, because it's really hard to explain to non-dancers how, at my age, I can justify spending upwards of $3k next year on tuition alone on dance when I 'have no future in it'. But you guys all understand, I'm sure! Only 9.5 hours to go until next class. Int ballet, pointe, and tap tonight! Can't wait. Quote Link to comment
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